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via http://taiga-sound.livejournal.com/

need a name change
so
im considering

myxina (last name with cyrillic twist)
death_by_blonde

(the other i want, -pochti ne vso ravno-, meaning im almost not indifferent, doesnt fit letter wise)

or maybe you can help
something that says snarky(sarcastic) but playful
maybe add some sex too

-i could bend the universe
if I could only get there first-

things left so terribly undone.-

title seemed elusive enough and so
katie, scottie, yelena, and i
hit
symmetry study #14

not to fall to deeply into the stars
but heres the light tnite
= a bit idealistic,
where i roam.

the Libran part of you is tuned as tight as the high string on a violin.
Spirit gave you some advice back before you were born: don't pluck it.
And don't let anyone else pluck it either.

Inevitably, with your terrific sensitivity, you'll get rattled from time to time.
What can you do about it?
Watch a ballet, or any other beautiful thing.
The outer harmony will internalize; you'll sigh, releasing tension.
That's the Libran evolutionary strategy in a nutshell: flood your senses with perceptions of beauty.
It will soothe you, lifting you closer to the unbreakable serenity which is the true goal of this sign of the zodiac.

You were born with an instinctive tolerance for paradox.
Everything has two sides, and you'll almost always consider both.
This gives great clarity of mind, but also presents a problem.

Be careful you don't get caught between two equally attractive or (unattractive!) possibilities and just freeze there.

Life will crystallize around you again and again in that form: you'll be faced with a parade of morally or practically ambiguous situations. You'll understand them far better than your more dogmatic friends.
The question is whether you'll be able to make a choice and get on with your life, burning bridges behind you.

did an urban crawl
to scope out potential sites for photo shoot

had a few uncomfortable encounters
with unidentified sound
in dark stairwells
in abandoned factories

but have a pretty picture
in mind
of a future sprawl
with a white and red wedding gown
holding pearls
amidst the decay

i will have to return
with a handy accomplice

You’re trapped in a grocery store.
Zombies are closing in from all sides.
You have a crucial photo that could end the carnage,
if only you had some way to develop the film.

What do you do?

You grab some instant coffee and vitamin C, you develop the film, and you vanquish the zombies.

What, you don’t think im serious?
First of all, zombies are an inevitable part of life.
And secondly, you really can develop film using vitamin C and coffee.

http://www.foundphotography.com/2009/03/develop-film-with-coffee-and-vitamin-c/

somewhere i have never travelled,gladly beyond
any experience,your eyes have their silence:
in your most frail gesture are things which enclose me,
or which i cannot touch because they are too near

your slightest look easily will unclose me
though i have closed myself as fingers,
you open always petal by petal myself as Spring opens
(touching skilfully,mysteriously)her first rose

or if your wish be to close me, i and
my life will shut very beautifully ,suddenly,
as when the heart of this flower imagines
the snow carefully everywhere descending;

nothing which we are to perceive in this world equals
the power of your intense fragility:whose texture
compels me with the color of its countries,
rendering death and forever with each breathing

(i do not know what it is about you that closes
and opens;only something in me understands
the voice of your eyes is deeper than all roses)
nobody,not even the rain,has such small hands


ee cummings.

late nights
alwaysrecently
tumbling towards
bedside manner

cant sleep though ive an early rise
induced by
dreamers  (ironic)

terrible film dont bother
but let me suffice by saying
personally;
3
is not always a crowd.

u menya vobshem konfuz
po kokomu yaziku pisat
ne ponyatno

inogda chuvstvayu po ruski

also thinking of switching to a new journal

10 years of misbehavior
need a book of its own

and maybe its time
my wiser personality
lives a clean slate destiny.

movie/netflix recommendations?

im of the french/spanish indy cinema likings.

how long
to
be

how long til
i arrive

the years just notes
now in my leather

close
twice or once

or
conversation

ive laid two fold a line for every time
i thought
to be the world

so many definitions


day
hold me simple
and night
untie my tongue.

via http://www.toxel.com/inspiration/2009/01/03/beautiful-moon-photography-from-russia/

i feel whelmed (not over or under..)
by the beauty
that walks
and speechless with a thousand reasons

oh god exhilarating
(in the natural sense of senses)

im naked
and theres nothing id rather be

wandering these halls of mine
as i get better and worse
i wonder how far the rabbit hole goes
and which side to lean on

late night
but
i have no fear of missing out
dark smoke filled and full of some promise of a life worth living


i just want to watch the sky
in silence
with my lover

a recent party invite and i cant help but
LOL etc:

HYDROPHONICS is something we've been discussing for awhile and have finally decided we must follow through on.
A party at the grow shop! Woohoo!
Specialty Garden Supply in Watsonville will be hosting a Sunday evening reggae, dubstep, drum & bass party that is sure to make your petunias bloom.

There's a bunch of extra space at the shop and it just seems like a good place to turn up the system and rock out.

We will also be having pallet jack racing in the parking lot and high pressure sodium tanning beds for anyone who is interested.
Learn a little something about NPK, beneficial bacteria, and the importance of trace minerals, while shaking what good old Mother Nature gave you.

this is the kind of melody
that keeps your body pumping at 160 bpm
and i keep thinking
is it you or just the light tonight